BIRTHDAY BEHAVIOUR: TURNING 21 BY FORCE!
Finally! My birthday post! I delayed this post till today because I’m trying to get back on my Sunday posting wagon so yes. New posts will be going up on Sundays again.
The Birthday Post!
I thought on my 21st birthday, I’d be writing some form of overly reflective post on how much I’ve achieved in the past year. Surprise…I’m not. This is not because I have not achieved anything. I’d like to think that I have. However, there’s a whole lot more I thought I would have done by now that I’m not even close to doing. So I got really unexcited about my birthday.
I was desperately trying to push back turning 21 and wishing I could somehow give myself some more time to do these things. But the dynamics of time just wouldn’t let me.
No matter how fast I tried to run, 21 was fast catching up with me. I hurriedly started trying to cram so many things into last year just so I could say I did it. But that did not exactly work.
On the night of the 26th (my birthday eve), I lay on my bed looking at the roof and thought to myself, “So I’m sha turning this 21 by force by fire”. There was no question. Except the ones I plagued myself with. I decided to try something else instead. I got up from my bed, picked a pen and a book and wrote down “I am enough”. Instead of sulking about what I haven’t done, I reminded myself of what I HAVE done. I started to say it with my words. “I am enough. I am all that I need to be at this exact moment. I am proud of myself. I am as much as I need to be. I am turning 21 tomorrow and it is going to be awesome”. Little crazy right? I know.
BUT IT WAS AWESOME! Not to toot my own horn but I have this best family, friends, and teammates. For the most part of the day, I actually forgot that I did not want this day to come so soon. I felt love in all its forms and I was reminded every second, about the importance of the people in your life.
The influx of messages on my phone and every social media platform I exist on was overwhelming. I stepped into my office and my teammates immediately made me feel so special, pulling out chairs for me and all. So many gifts and surprises and I even got taken out to dinner afterwards.
But even if all of this did not happen, I was still determined to keep my heart in its proper place and focus on the things that truly matter.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that you’re enough. You are all that you need to be at this moment. It’s easy to get caught up in the vicious cycle of always wanting more and never stopping to focus on the things that matter at the moment. There must be something you have done that you can be proud of…even if its just realising that you need to do better. You should be proud that you came to that realisation for yourself. So sweetie! Take a pause and tell yourself that you’re proud. You’re proud of where you are and you’re proud of where you are going.
So here’s to a birthday with nothing much to say. Here’s to loving and being loved in return. Here’s to keeping our hearts in the proper place. Here’s to being proud of yourself. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES.
Let’s try this! Share one thing you are proud of yourself for (no matter how little) in the comments section. That’s the culture we encourage!
Stay consistent people. See y’all, next post.
Your tiny eyed storyteller.